It really hurts t see your posts. Considering all that I have been through myself, I am worried about the things that may happen to you solely based on your outlook. I am having the roughest financial time of my life right now and hope that someone can help even though there are many who are in a worse spot.
For the sake of everyone who loves you and everyone with a caring soul, please look up. Someone WILL help you, and hpefully you will help someone else.
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